As September ended and the dust from TEDxBoulder began to settle, I looked back on 2012, the part of it that had passed anyway, and I saw work, yoga and routine. Mostly routine. And I was tired.
Monday: work, yoga, home. Tuesday, Wednesday, Thursday, Friday, the same. Weekends: sleep. Bored.
I woke up on October first, after a weekend of getting after it with some new friends, and I saw that I had become a slave to my schedule. The things that I used to love in their own right had become just another obligation on my to do list. Yes, even yoga.
So, I decided to take a break. From yoga, from obligation, from seriousness, and devote an entire month to my friends, enjoying my beautiful little Colorado town and probably more bourbon and coffee than was entirely necessary. No more to-dos, lots more enjoyment of the things that make life worth living.
As far as intentions go, this was a relatively easy one to keep - I saw music, went to happy hour, stayed out late and was generally less stressed than I've been in a long time. As far as end results go, I invested less time in solitary pursuits, and more time in my community, and I saw my core group of friends come together in a way that makes my soul happy on levels that I can't even describe. Friendships take work and effort - just as I put time in on my mat to keep it good with me, I have to put time in with my friends so that those relationships grow and we build trust and love and respect for each other and create support to get us through the hard times.
On the whole, October was everything I wanted and then some. More than a few times I know I actually said out loud, "wow, this is really fantastic." And if you were there with me, you witnessed me living, both in and in awe of the moment, for the moment and being truly present in connection with the people I was with and whatever it was we were doing. When I make a point to notice and appreciate, in real time, my enjoyment of the little things that make my life here so very, very blessed, the sunsets are brighter, the whiskey more delicious, and the love is bigger than I could have possibly imagined.
And I start a new month, a new journey into whatever may come, knowing that I am surrounded by friends who truly love me, in a town I truly love waking up in everyday, with an excitement for whatever is next, and I carry with me an acute awareness that this life is so very amazing and so very short and so very precious, and to miss the beauty of one single moment would be a waste.
To all of you who played a part, near and far, my mind is blown and my heart is happy and I am so very, very grateful to all of you.