living the mystery
When I wake up in the morning, I have no idea what's going to happen. I know what I'm going to do that day, but I never know what's going to happen, and that is awesome.
When I walk into yoga, I usually don't know what we're going to do, and I definitely have no idea what's going to happen, and that is even more awesome.
I've written about class the last two nights, but haven't posted anything because I haven't come out of there with a big "A-HA!" On Tuesday night I was thinking about how I'm learning self restraint, how I'm better able to wait things out and see how they resolve on their own without trying to meddle in anything. Last night I was mostly just hot like FIYAH from my stretch and flow class.
I am pushing myself a lot harder this week, physically and mentally, and I have much less time to think. This probably means that I am doing a better job in spite of my blog content suffering. I am also settling into more of a routine with my practice, and I tend to check out as soon as I plant myself on my mat. I can't tell you one thing I've thought about the last two nights, but I do know this: my body hurts more this week than last and yet, a day off is not even on the schedule. I wouldn't miss class for the world.
In my real life, there are surprises around every corner. A run in with a new friend yielded some amazing business opportunities and a last minute cancellation gave me the opportunity to get to yoga early and chat with one of my teachers.
I'm learning that I am capable of things I never thought I could do; at work, on the mat, inside my own head. That kind of insight is a serious trip and some nights, I come out of class and I can't put it into words. I spoke with my mom today and she jokingly asked if I was going to start taking off on yoga retreats to which I exclaimed: YES! ABSO-*&%-ING-LUTELY! I can't wait for the day when I'm strong and practiced enough to spend my new year's doing yoga under the moon on a beach in costa rica. Watchout!
My point is this: you never know what's around the next corner, what a red light caused you to miss, what a breakup saved you from. You can only trust that the world is a loving place, and wants the best for you. If you let it, it will push you right where you need to be.